So many times I have been riding in the car or laying awake in my bed and conversing with my mind and  I have experienced small revelations of what I think is maginificent insight that I wish I  could share and have said to myself that some day I will create a blog.  Well, today is that 'some day.'  And the reason is that it is the two year anniversary of my husband being in a near fatal auto accident and also the two year anniversary of the death of my nearly 4 month old great nephew.  And since that horrible tragic day ocurred I have had something to say:

First of all, there are so many people to thank for being at our side and so many people that were praying for us but the one person that stands out in my mind the most is Matthew Myers. Yes, Matt is a cousin but more than that he is an EMT and also a paramedic.  He was there on that cold frigid morning and helped keep my husband alert by talking to him while John was pinned in his truck upside down.  He was there carrying the stretcher through the snow covered field and up the ditch to get John to the ambulance.  He was there when I arrived at the hospital and greeted me and took me to see my husband.  He was also there when I nearly fainted when I saw the head trauma !  And a few short hours later Matt was once again at my side when our sweet Sully Boy was brought through those never ending opening doors in the ER .... and he began to take care of little Sully who wasn't breathing.  And Matt was there again when he came to tell me that Sully had passed and held me as I sobbed.  There aren't many people like Matt Myers and I am so very grateful. 

After that day had ended and things had calmed down a bit and began to get back to normal ( although normal will be when we are in heaven with Jesus and Jamie is once again loving on her precious baby ) so many people especially on face book made the remarks that God Will Never Give Us More Than We Can Handle.  What crap !  Whew... !  I feel better !  I always wanted to say that but I never did. 

1Corinthians 10:13  (NIV)  No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.

There is a vast and yet fine difference between too much temptation and too much anguish to bear.  Two years ago today I was given wayyyyy more than I could handle.  If it hadn't been for Christ and my family I would not have survived that day mentally.  It clearly was the worst day of my life.  But by the Grace of God I survived.  Was I tempted to turn away from Jesus several times and lash out at the world ?  Was I tempted to blame God for hurting Jamie so far beyond repair?  Was I tempted to give it all up and be a 'hater'?  You bet I was !  But, I was not tempted more than I could handle because the Bible states that God will not do that to us.  With  Jesus Christ carrying me on that terrible day I was able to get through the grief, but without Him I would not have.  I would have succumbed to my temptations and given in to the hatred.  I hope this clarifies the thoughts that have been swirling around in my mind for so long.  And my nest blog will be on a much lighter note ...  :  )

Sully boy,  it is the Lord's gain that you are in heaven.   We know that you have the perfect life and that you eat donuts with Thao.  And that's what heaven is about.  Your Auntie Katy will see you again and hold and kiss on you.  Love you buddy.